Dislocate
I mean, really: while taking pictures? “Come on, get real” I heard myself say… But it actually got so bad, that I found myself traveling, wandering the streets all over the world desperately trying to find myself, pointing my camera inwards along the way.
Only very slowly I learned to use this feeling as a positive rather than a constrictive force. But it was hard – and sometimes, when I get into that mood, it still is – to make that switch.
Story
The project “dislocate” is not only photography: it spills over into the rest of my life. My relationship with my family has always been exceptional, and now it is even better; I’m much more at ease with who I am as a person; and when I’m working, I now work harder and more efficiently; and I love what I do more than ever before.
On the other hand, I’m also much more intolerant and nervous, and get angry more often, when confronted with things that waste time or energy… I’m much more focused, and I realize more than before that we’re all given only one time here on this world. One time to be on that centre stage… And I feel I have to make it count.
“Dislocate” is not a singular project. It’s an assignment, it’s commercial, it’s art, it’s my life, all at the same time. It doesn’t distract me from any other work I do. It is just, simply, always there. I could describe it as a mood that runs through me, all the time. It isn’t even fixed to photography… Photography just happens to be the vehicle to express myself at this point in my life.
“Dislocate” forces me to open my mind as wide as i can. It makes me not judge others and listen instead, trying to understand. I honestly believe it might even make me a better person. “Dislocate” is my sense of my place in this world. Me feeling uprooted, my incessant looking for where I might belong…
Where my land is.
Actually, I think “dislocate” is never meant to be finished. Maybe it’s just the thing that makes me feel that I’m a photographer.
Hmm… I hope it never goes away.
Timeline | Blog
You can follow the online account of the progress of me continually creating DISLOCATE here: antonkusters.com/category/dislocate/
Work | Products
I know I might never complete it, let alone publish it. Come to think of it, completion of DISLOCATE is not even relevant. But publication is. Even if I’d have to use up all my built up credit to get this one published. Maybe I’m effectively, building up my entire career, just to have gained enough credit to make this one happen?
The publication of this work is still a long way away. But in the meantime I just might show images and make them available in little batches or stories, like this one: I see a ghost.
So watch this space to stay informed: antonkusters.com/portfolio_category/dislocate/
Publications | Press & Media
Public attention for DISLOCATE will of course make me focus more on this… We’ll see what happens. No rush… The first publication was in B+W Magazine.
antonkusters.com/portfolio_category/publications/?tag=dislocate
